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We used to walk here together. The air leaks cold into our bodies and it lies there against our bones and it's like we'll never ever be warm again. And I'm leaning against your side and we're walking diagonal against the cold. I keep wishing you would put your arm around me because my feet feel like they're trying to float off the ground. You reach for my hand, hold it between your long piano-playing hands and it is cold against colder as it starts to snow just light enough so you can feel the five-prong pattern melting against your cheek and mourn the death of something that is painfully unique. I keep thinking about that. Every snowflake

i know how you fell i watched your descent and now from below we are both hell-bent looking for an answer a final solution earth bound by silence and a subtle confusion through the flesh between us i reach out my hand if i could just touch your fingers i know you'd understand that if i stood wordless nothing to say that you'd be able to hear me anyway and as we stand together and i break down that you'd fold your wings and follow the sound that if i couldn't hold on if i had to give in you'd follow me out of this landlocked skin

............................. ........................... ......................... ....................... ..................... ................... ................. ............... ............. ........... ......... ....... ..... ... .. . I sat out in the lobby in one of those uncomfortable chairs A pen in my hand and ink on my arms and the other children stared At pictures traced from elbows to face of dragons and castles and storms And they called my name with a stilted tone and I stood and walked boldly inside My eyes wide open my body slanted and nothing there to hide And they looked at me from the shadows and the

I wake up at night with tears in my eyes Waiting for reality to cut me down to size Seeping my terror into the air that surrounds me That sense of uneasiness here to confound me And in my mind I still chase that girl in my head With the wild tangled hair, that child that said "You can't fight with nature and battle the air You're a child of the Goddess the only true heir Caught in a world that's transparent and thin Only you can break the world and let yourself in." And I'm rising at dawn with my face cloaked and veiled Feeling the pain of deceit every time I exhale I'm only trying to be the me the world wants me to be Just holdi

I am hiding in this darkness Running barefoot down the street But from inside my tortured globe I can still hear your heart beat You taught me about poetry You said you have to know where you've been But you don't have to measure the distance To know where pain begins There's a place inside my silence Where my fear has been rubbed bare And I'm cradling it inside my hands Running my fingers through my hair I don't know where life started I can't tell you where this was born But every time I look for you I can feel where my mind is torn I can see where the resistance dropped And fell like a stone into black And gave in under t

Every time I turn around I see your face I hear your eyes Fall downward and crush me And I turn back to run And every time I do You are there once again Smiling that smile That makes everything seem Tired and old and sick Like you are Putting me out of my misery With one glance So I look down to avoid your eyes And every time I do You are holding my chin Pulling my gaze back up Hooking me into your gauges I felt Sick Again So I look up Towards whatever heaven I have not lost And you are there Your fingers tangled in my hair The fear you inspire Rising upward with my Soul And I Don't Know What To Say And

I wonder how it would come out differently If you were here beside me If maybe I would lower my head And let the quiet build into thunderheads In the dark of my mind Until it burst Setting the horizon on fire The sun forgot to rise again this morning Reminding me that I should never expect That the things that never fail to happen Will never happen to fail The inside of my mouth is raw From the words that I never said Like taking a shattered glass figure Into my chest and then letting it Crawl its way back out to the sunlight While my eyes are accusing this land Of all the pain that I'm feeling inside Of the fact that I

As a little girl I sat on the front steps Staring out at the street Where there are cars driving by Heads turning towards me The child who looks lost Who looks like she doesn't understand HOME There is a grizzled man Wearing worn clothes Standing on the corner Staring at the little girl Sitting on the front steps And he doesn't notice the cars go by Because he is drawn to the lost Expecting to be satiated Birds to seeds Bees to flowers Found the lost in her And after that day I was never the same again No longer a little girl No front steps are safe The street is danger Heads turning are predators But I am still The c